28 January, 2010 11:54
the first month of the new year is almost done. one down, eleven more to go.
at the same time last year, i was gearing up for an epic break ahead. now, i’m barely catching my breath as i cope with waves of challenges at work.
by day, i’m the picture of efficient competence, sunny smiles and helpful demeanor as i shuttle quickly between meetings, sessions, hospital, seminars, group work, committees, research, reports and case work. i suppose it’s no wonder i’m empty by sundown.
i appreciate the value of my job; but i wonder if i’m really suitable for it. i can keep doing what i’m doing now, but just not with the kind of personalized touch i think i’m gifted with.
so where does it leave me? with another challenge to surmount, i suppose.
Ng Yuet Ling is discussing. 
on the go 
Ng Yuet Ling 09:34 on 2010/02/27 Permalink |
Sometimes we trade our ‘selves’ for our financial independence. We had Yvonne Lek over for Social Emotional Competence training over 2 days. We all collect emotional stamps daily. Must find a place to release those stamps. It helps to exercise and ‘spoil’ ourselves to release the accumulation. For me, I don’t stay more than 3 yrs at one place but cos I’m sole breadwinner, I’ve been at this school for 8 years already. That’s not me. But I have little choice. However, having too much choice isn’t good either. Stability, though enforced, is sometimes good for building up a dependent relationship on God. If He didn’t give me the strength, I’d have abandoned my kids at some time I think, out of sheer desperation to be me.